Friday, October 30, 2009

So excited...

So, I thought since my health problems are at a standstill at this time (Praise Jesus), I thought I would talk about what God has been teaching me and talking to me about. I think the biggest one right now is learning and understanding boundaries. I am listening to "Boundaries in Dating" on audiobook in my car and I am going to follow this one up with the main book, "Boundaries". I can't believe how long I have gone in my life without truly understanding boundaries. I have always have boundaries in my life, but I have let others push them a bit, and I am finally learning how to take them back as my own and keep them in place. Without understanding the importance of boundaries at a deep level, it is hard to keep these boundaries exactly where I wanted them to be. I wouldn't ask questions to clarify how I was feeling, I would just try a discrete way to get out of that situation.

After listening to this book, I have found a new strength to hold onto what I know is right and know that the people that get offended by my boundaries are the ones that I need the boundaries for and the ones with good boundaries of their own will be right on board with me taking my boundaries seriously. Also, I have truly understood why it is so important to fully be myself in every situation. I knew it before, but it is sticking with me this time. If you are trying to be someone else, someone may fall in love or in friendship with this persona and one day your true self will come out and then there will be issues to deal with. If you just start out as yourself you do not have the pressure to remember who you were in your last situations. What freedom comes with being yourself!! This is how God intended it, and I believe that my generation has really been playing with these boundaries and I am going to separate myself from the norm and stand for what I believe to be true, and right, and pure. I want others around me to know that I have boundaries so they can trust me and not worry what I am feeling beneath the surface.

Just in the last couple of days I have addressed a couple situations where in the past I would have prayed and hoped that I had the strength to show the other person what I believe and if I am uncomfortable with the situation, I was hoping they would pick up on the "vibe". This time around I have asked the questions and given my opinion in order to feel comfortable with the situation at hand. It is so much easier to be up front on how everyone is feeling about each and every situation. I am not letting others push me into a situation without my full consent. (In saying this I am not blaming the other people from the past, I am just saying that I am becoming strong enough as a person to not go along with these situations) I love this freedom and I know without the little secrets being kept of feeling awkward in a situation because I will keep my mouth shut will help my relationship with the Lord as well as many others! I would encourage everyone to read/listen to these boundaries books! They explain why it is so important to have these boundaries for your safety and the safety of others in your relationships. I love you all and I can't wait to listen to the full boundaries books. God is so good and He is moving, I am just going to make sure I have His hand in mine instead of holding my own hand through the tough seasons and even the easiest of seasons! :) Have a great day and talk to you all soon!!!

From one perfect fit to another,
Amy~

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Lately...

So, I am sorry that it has been so long since I have written last, and I would love to come up with a great reason/excuse why I have been away, but alas, I have no good excuse to come by. From a medical standpoint it is great because I am on half of my dose of Cabergoline so I have a half tablet on Wednesdays. I go back in on December 4th just for some blood draws to make sure that my tumor is not secreting any hormones that are abnormal. So far so good. I am just believing that this little guy is going to disappear on its own. That would be the most ideal situation. Everything looks great for now, nothing abnormal. The tumor is still the same size, but it has not grown at all. So, overall it is doing very well.

Besides my health I have been working for my dad still and I just returned to Nashville from a trip to Atlanta and then a girls' trip to New York with my mom and sister and my mom's friend Linda. It was so much fun to be with just girls. I came back last night and will be in Nashville until November 18th when I will drive home with Lexi. Hopefully there are not any early problems on the roads or else we may be driving south before coming back north. I must say though that I miss everyone back at home and the babies, but I know I will miss everyone here as well! That is what has been going on lately, I know short and sweet... Love you all!! Thanks again for the prayers, they are much appreciated! Talk to you soon, I hope! :)