So, after having an emotional couple of days Jesus likes to throw me for a loop and love on me in all of the right ways. I had no idea a few months ago how much I would be blessed by going and seeing Tyrone Wells perform. I have to lay some ground work, Tyrone’s music has been a great comfort for me through this whole process and when I am down, I just pop in his music and Jesus shows his love to me through song. I hear Jesus through music a lot actually…. Anyways, I went to the dentist this morning and was happy because I did not have any problems… So that was feat one of the day, go to some sort of medical appointment and not have an issue. To most of you, you are probably thinking that this is nothing, but to me this is God’s provision on my heart. I was just telling my mom yesterday how I wish I could go to an appointment and not have some sort of problem for once and here I go to the dentist on “April Fool’s Day” and I have my first appointment in a long time without any complications… Now tell me that Jesus does not have a sense of humor!
I went to meet my friend Amber down at Mississippi studios and we went and ate next door first and made some new friends and saw some interesting characters as well. We had some great conversation and God really used her to speak some truth into my heart… I am finding that one part of me finds it very hard to let others speak truth to me when it comes down to who I am as a person. I am working very hard at accepting it instead of shrugging it off, but I want to grow in any way I can so I am working at it. We then headed over to the concert with Bonnie and Daniel. Tyrone was beaming with the Holy Spirit… It was all over him!! He spoke on a couple different things, one was just about his relationship with Jesus and he was so honest and humble and pure and gentle and genuine… He talked about what he believed and it looked like he was just walking hand in hand with a friend of his. It was beautiful. It makes me want to be more bold with people and stand up for what I believe and what I hold onto with my morals and just cherish what is precious to me. The other thing he talked about was another big one… He talked about women and how society has pushed the wrong image of beauty and just embracing how God created us and said to be confident in who we are because that is the most attractive thing to a guy. It was a message I need to hear because I have struggled with body image issues for way too long!!! I am ready to break free from that and truly live in freedom with Jesus!!
I am so excited because I finally am starting to feel like I am myself again. I am fully back, but I am coming and I am coming strong, with Jesus there is not anyone who can push me down and satan does not have a lie that can keep me anymore… I choose to believe what Jesus says is true, I mean why would I want to believe someone who is not looking out for my best interest? It just doesn’t make sense. I would really challenge everyone to take a look at who you are now and compare that with who you were as a child and see where you may need to release control over and come back to yourself as a child who’s father is ready to embrace You, not who you think someone wants, but He created each one of us different because He wanted diversity and uniqueness and beauty and all of the quirks… We are free to be beautiful and handsome and loved and to love… We are free to put ourselves out there and free to fall back into Jesus’ arms when we get hurt, but just because we get hurt it does not mean that we take ourselves out of the race… Share your dreams with Jesus… Don’t give up on them, they are there for a reason, don’t just accept mediocre as the best you will get… I love you all and am so thankful for who you have been in my life and for the support along my journey… Have an amazing day everyone and sorry for my rambling! :)
Ames~
