New Year... New news...

So, I am sorry again for my vacancy on my blog. For some reason, when you are not glued to a couch for months at a time it is hard to sit down and write something worth reading. So, here goes nothing... haha!!

There are a few aspects to this blog... Health (the reason for this blog), upcoming events in my life, and struggles/how God is working... So here goes nothing :)

On March 19th I went into the waterfront offices of OHSU... My first stop was on floor number 3, the MRI, which is not totally invasive but the sounds that thing makes could make cats scream... take a moment, imagine what that would sound like... yes there ya go, now you are in an MRI.... So, I went in and did my waiting in the waiting room (sidenote, have you people ever thought that they need to change that name, waiting room... it is more like an excuse than anything else, they should call it the in and out room) anyways, so my nurse came back and started to go through everything with me, but I am a pro and so I told her that there was no metal on me from head to toe and so I followed her into the room to get my IV placed. One thing a nurse should NEVER say, that my nurse kindly stated was "I am not very good at this". Well, shame on me because I should have asked for another nurse right away, but instead I just sat there and said, "I am sure it won't be bad, I just can't look because it still makes me nervous." Well, here is how the conversation went on:

Nurse: Ok, here comes the needle (small poke)
Me: Oh, that didn't hurt at all
Nurse: I wouldn't say that quite yet (yet another thing a nurse should never say)
Me: Oh... (then in my head... ow ow ow ow... what is she doing in there with that thing?)
Nurse: Oh I think I should call the other nurse... Nurse Sue, nurse Sue... (all the while she is wiggling a little thing in my arm)
Me: (in my head... this feels like she is putting an epidural in my arm... and there she goes again... owwwww pain!!)
Nurse: Oh there we go, I got it...
Me: (in my head... I do not like this lady)

So, after we bonded I followed her back into the room and she connected me to the contrast machine and slid me back into the machine... It went for a while and once it was over, I thought that was the worst part, but alas, she had some more fun planned for me... She tried to disconnected the cord and my IV, but she could not get it so again... We go with the what not to do... She grabs my IV and starts pulling in two directions... She then states "I put this on so tight, it doesn't seem to want to come off... I guess I will just have to break it off... Seriously lady... why!!! Luckily she got it off without a problem so there I was on my way up to the 8th floor, I have never been so excited to visit the neurosurgery level... As I am talking to the receptionist I look down and notice that my blood is coming down my arm from where my IV is... This is a new concept for me as this has never happened before... I told the receptionist and he sent me back to my doctor who stated that it was a total mess and fixed me up... I went through my appointment without a hitch from there on... Praise Jesus!!!

I got the results back and my tumor is the same size as it was before which is not bad, but it is not what they were hoping so they upped my dose of medication... Now I am back to taking it two times a week again instead of once. Most of my bloodwork came back OK as my doctor put... all except my Vitamin D which was low, so my doctor ordered a vitamin D prescription... and my insulin growth factor was up again... which is my growth hormone... I have to go back in, in June and get my levels checked again... If it is high still then I will have to have one more test to truly test it out and if it is high after that then we will look at surgery.

So, now we are onto what is coming up in my life. I am trying to get an internship in marketing and then in the Fall I am planning on going back to Oregon State to get my degree in Marketing. That is the plan for now, so we will see what happens in between now and then.

As far as what I have been struggling with... I have had two friends in particular let's just call them R and T.... :) I had amazing conversations with them and they were so encouraging and speaking truth and healing into me and I was doing so well... and then I went to get my allergy shots today... I had the smallest dose and I had a reaction and they have to talk to my doctor and figure out what to do with me. I got that news and the news about my blood results all in a matter of two or so hours. So, I was driving home... crying which was not the safest thing to do, but I was and I was listening to the United Pursuit Band and the song Arise, Shine came on and it was so good... I could feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. I got home and got everything under control and my doctor's nurse called to make my blood work appointment... well, I got off the phone and bawled... See, this doesn't happen very often because I tend to hold it all in and cry in the shower (for some reason it is the best place for me to do it) anyways, I got myself under control again and went inside just to be asked by Lexi what was wrong... I cried again... Geez!! So, that is what I am struggling with.... Purpose in the hard stuff and feeling the emotions, but not getting lost in them...

Every day brings something a little bit new, but I am ready to face it in relationship with Jesus, because the One who loves me most is the One who is in charge and caring for me in all the details!! Thank you all for praying and I will let you know what happens as soon as I find anything out!! I love you all so much!! Muahhh!!!

Ames~